The bible says “Those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting.” I have experienced first hand what psalm 126.5 tells the reader.
Having lost my son last year, it has been very difficult to promote my last work of historical fiction, Barbarossa’s Princess. You see my son died the same month that my book was supposed to come out. Physically and emotionally I was paralyzed. I scheduled gigs months apart and after each of my presentations and book signings I was so depleted I had to go to bed for two days.
In the writers’ group that I am in, I would bring the latest installment of my new unfinished work, Bavarian Blue, but often I couldn’t make sense of where in the story the piece should go. I know the participants of the group were exasperated with me, my story’s lack of focus, the typos, yada. They don’t know me, I don’t know them. They didn’t know about my son. Never connected with anyone in the group. I just float in and out submitting my work for critique.
I”ve passed the year mark in May and only now, months later, is my brain beginning to work. I have begun to reap with joyful shouting because God is blessing me with opportunities I could not have imagined. Resource material appears when I need it, people seem to appear when I need them, love and comfort surrounds me. I am feeling whole, though a day does not go by when a thought of my Robert does not drift in and out.
Writers, if you have experienced a loss, a challenge, stay strong in your faith. God is walking beside you. Ever so slowly you will see his work. Don’t give up, for you shall reap with joyful shouting.